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I've been having a lot of doubts lately, about this relationship and where it's going. I feel like the honeymoon phase has dissipated and now I'm left wanting more. I feel like I never reached the intensity of past relationships, and I don't know if that's an indication of something wrong. Yesterday, after a great day, I asked for attention, as Greg was coming over and I knew I'd have to wait until he left otherwise. I was told "But we're going to cuddle later" which immediately sent me into a pouty mood. "Fine. No, no, it's fine." I don't understand being put off like that, like what I'm asking for is so difficult or unpleasant.
I'm trying to offset my shitty mood by remembering the good things. I had done or said something I considered strange, and reminded him, "You chose this, you know", referring to myself. He held my gaze, smiling, and said "Yes. Absolutely." and kissed my hand as he held it. Shouldn't that be important? Am I choosing to dwell on negative feelings and ignore the affirmations he IS giving me?
I'm trying to offset my shitty mood by remembering the good things. I had done or said something I considered strange, and reminded him, "You chose this, you know", referring to myself. He held my gaze, smiling, and said "Yes. Absolutely." and kissed my hand as he held it. Shouldn't that be important? Am I choosing to dwell on negative feelings and ignore the affirmations he IS giving me?