life or something like it...
i lost my charger to my cell phone...ughh i hope i find it soon. i dont wanna have to buy a new one.
ive been thinking alot about stuff. talking to miss andrea alot alot alot! damn i miss her. sometimes in life you can just know certain people that will always be there no matter what happens. the hardys are just those people. andrea is like my sister. the one i go to for advice, the one that can talk to me about boys and other girly stuff. the one that i can get drunk with and feel completly awesome haha. me and andrea go back, waaay back...i love her! then there is patrick. he's my buddy, my best friend. i always wanted a brother. i guess hes the closest thing i got to one. were so alike, which helps us to talk and get along...but then again we fight like were siblings lol i take that as a good thing though. he's always looking out for me and i know when push comes to shove he'd stand up for me no matter what.
ive had alot of issues with friends lately...and i guess i feel good knowing that no matter what atleast i got andrea and pat. atleast that can be one constant i have. and i know when im gone, they miss me, and when i come back its fucking party time...cuz theyre excited to see me. thats a nice feeling to have...who needs a million friends anyways when you have some really awesome ones.
in a few weeks it will be and toms 2 1/2 year anniversery(august 17th to be exact)...shit thats fucking crazy. i kind of realized something last night. if there was a stronger word than love, i would say it. its not just him. i do love him, i love everything about him, even the things i dont love, theyre kinda cute in some way. but i talked to his mother for a few hours when i took him to work. she was telling me stories about him and his bros when they were babies. and about her and thier father and all this family stuff. and i remember when they took me with them on thier family vacation last year. i love his family, i love that i feel like a part of it too. though me and tom are only dating, were not engaged, were not getting married. but we have plans together. we have a life together. we have a future to think and dream about. we have a past full of memories. and we have a present thats looking very good. fights happen. they need to. your not always gonna love each other all the time. but the fact that we want to make this work, we want to make it together...it means everything. this is the most meaningful thing ive ever had in my whole life and i intend on never giving up on it.
i look over at him right now(hes playing videogames)as i am typing this...::delightful sigh::....thats what he always used to type to me when we'd talk online when i was away at school...i love that boy<3.
i havent written in forever...and this feels like one of the few entries that actually means something. maybe i'll write more....
ohh and if anyone got thru this whole thing...just a though...im coming home the weekend of my birthday and ive decided what i wanna do...i want to go to a bar that has kareoke and be with all my friends and have a fucking sweet time getting smashed and singing badly with my friends.
:-)
ive been thinking alot about stuff. talking to miss andrea alot alot alot! damn i miss her. sometimes in life you can just know certain people that will always be there no matter what happens. the hardys are just those people. andrea is like my sister. the one i go to for advice, the one that can talk to me about boys and other girly stuff. the one that i can get drunk with and feel completly awesome haha. me and andrea go back, waaay back...i love her! then there is patrick. he's my buddy, my best friend. i always wanted a brother. i guess hes the closest thing i got to one. were so alike, which helps us to talk and get along...but then again we fight like were siblings lol i take that as a good thing though. he's always looking out for me and i know when push comes to shove he'd stand up for me no matter what.
ive had alot of issues with friends lately...and i guess i feel good knowing that no matter what atleast i got andrea and pat. atleast that can be one constant i have. and i know when im gone, they miss me, and when i come back its fucking party time...cuz theyre excited to see me. thats a nice feeling to have...who needs a million friends anyways when you have some really awesome ones.
in a few weeks it will be and toms 2 1/2 year anniversery(august 17th to be exact)...shit thats fucking crazy. i kind of realized something last night. if there was a stronger word than love, i would say it. its not just him. i do love him, i love everything about him, even the things i dont love, theyre kinda cute in some way. but i talked to his mother for a few hours when i took him to work. she was telling me stories about him and his bros when they were babies. and about her and thier father and all this family stuff. and i remember when they took me with them on thier family vacation last year. i love his family, i love that i feel like a part of it too. though me and tom are only dating, were not engaged, were not getting married. but we have plans together. we have a life together. we have a future to think and dream about. we have a past full of memories. and we have a present thats looking very good. fights happen. they need to. your not always gonna love each other all the time. but the fact that we want to make this work, we want to make it together...it means everything. this is the most meaningful thing ive ever had in my whole life and i intend on never giving up on it.
i look over at him right now(hes playing videogames)as i am typing this...::delightful sigh::....thats what he always used to type to me when we'd talk online when i was away at school...i love that boy<3.
i havent written in forever...and this feels like one of the few entries that actually means something. maybe i'll write more....
ohh and if anyone got thru this whole thing...just a though...im coming home the weekend of my birthday and ive decided what i wanna do...i want to go to a bar that has kareoke and be with all my friends and have a fucking sweet time getting smashed and singing badly with my friends.
:-)