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[emphaticsilence]

i don't ever update this thing anymore...

i miss swingsets and long drives to see her...
i miss waking up next to someone
i miss having someone to come home to
i regret what happened
i am thankful for the things i still have
and for new friends, they help!
but, i wish i could go back to the summer
i wish i could make it up to her
i'm sorry for being dumb
i miss long nights of cuddling
and adventures
and vacations

my presentation is all wrong, it misrepresents me
none of this matters to anyone

i miss her
i was never as happy
i wish i could change things
i wish i could go back in time and start over
i should never feel this way
no one should...
its getting cold out
and i wish i wasn't here
i miss holding her in my arms
i miss kissing her cheek
i miss love...
i'll never get it back it seems
what have i become?

at least theres one thing in my life that makes me happy...