thoughts on death
I nearly died last night before bed. I started coughing and choking while standing in my bathroom. And as I am standing there, not able to breathe and desperately trying to 2 thoughts are circling in my head.
1. "I am going to die with my glasses on" - as if somehow that matters. Like once I'm dead, my glasses wouldn't be removed....it won't matter if I can't see at that point.
2. "What a stupid way to die, choking on phlegm in my bathroom" - is there a smart way to die? Does it matter? You are still as dead no matter how you go.
Obviously I recovered and I'm alright. But yeah, that is what I think of when I am dying.
1. "I am going to die with my glasses on" - as if somehow that matters. Like once I'm dead, my glasses wouldn't be removed....it won't matter if I can't see at that point.
2. "What a stupid way to die, choking on phlegm in my bathroom" - is there a smart way to die? Does it matter? You are still as dead no matter how you go.
Obviously I recovered and I'm alright. But yeah, that is what I think of when I am dying.