The Forever Kind
He says he loves me but it isn't the forever kind. I don't love him that way either.
I would not accept that kind because I know that I can't handle it. I had that once with my high school sweetheart. I fell apart when he left and did not recover for a long time. He fell apart when his great love died. My mother was a directionless wreck when my father passed. If my forever love, the one that will be my heartbeat were to show up in my life now - I would reject him out of self preservation.
What he and I have is a great friendship and amazing physical attraction. We have a mutual respect for each other and compromise in most situations so that we both are happy. To me, that is better than the forever kind - because that kind is too life shattering.
I would not accept that kind because I know that I can't handle it. I had that once with my high school sweetheart. I fell apart when he left and did not recover for a long time. He fell apart when his great love died. My mother was a directionless wreck when my father passed. If my forever love, the one that will be my heartbeat were to show up in my life now - I would reject him out of self preservation.
What he and I have is a great friendship and amazing physical attraction. We have a mutual respect for each other and compromise in most situations so that we both are happy. To me, that is better than the forever kind - because that kind is too life shattering.