Casey
At 3AM last night, my ex best friend rang my friend looking for my number. This guy broke my heart in so many places, it is unreal.He bent over sideways and would do anything for me,I was closer to him than I would be Sinead.He loved me,I didnt see that,and when I finally did see that,he didnt anymore.I used to go out with his best mate,who then told him to choose me or him,and he chose his friends (fair enough) but broke my heart,and I havnt seen him in just over a year,and now hes looking for my number.
Theres a part of me that thought this day would never come,and I would be 60-odd years old,and that would be the only way hed speak to me,if I had the excuse of "lifes too short", I had planned a million apologies in my head,the smile I would smile and the moment over and over again.
Now I just feel numb.All I want to do is show him how brilliant I am now, the job, the money, the car, the friends, the boyfriend, the life I lead now is completely different to the life we led last year.Im such a different person....such a different person.
If he offers an apology..how would I be able to hold back the angry tears? I really want to text him, but Im so afraid he was just drunk or put up to it. Im going to ask Christine to text him and say "Hey,sorry havnt got back to you,were you drunk last night or sumthin?Do you still want her number? EMPHASIS on do,YOU...STILL....want her number???
Karacs going to Amerikay tomorrow! Cant wait to see him after work,he knocked up last night but I was knackered.Hes gettin his head around the band thing now,theyre thinkin of the next steps,etc.Hel come back from Americkay buzzin with ideas.I know he will,Id love to be goin to Amerikay so bad.Lucky fucker.Im gonna miss his sweet, sweet ass!!
Theres a part of me that thought this day would never come,and I would be 60-odd years old,and that would be the only way hed speak to me,if I had the excuse of "lifes too short", I had planned a million apologies in my head,the smile I would smile and the moment over and over again.
Now I just feel numb.All I want to do is show him how brilliant I am now, the job, the money, the car, the friends, the boyfriend, the life I lead now is completely different to the life we led last year.Im such a different person....such a different person.
If he offers an apology..how would I be able to hold back the angry tears? I really want to text him, but Im so afraid he was just drunk or put up to it. Im going to ask Christine to text him and say "Hey,sorry havnt got back to you,were you drunk last night or sumthin?Do you still want her number? EMPHASIS on do,YOU...STILL....want her number???
Karacs going to Amerikay tomorrow! Cant wait to see him after work,he knocked up last night but I was knackered.Hes gettin his head around the band thing now,theyre thinkin of the next steps,etc.Hel come back from Americkay buzzin with ideas.I know he will,Id love to be goin to Amerikay so bad.Lucky fucker.Im gonna miss his sweet, sweet ass!!