In which Eia admits failure.
I've been meaning to say this for a while, but kept putting it off because I thought to myself no, you've only been here a little while, just wait and see. But it's been nearly five months now.
Facts:
1.) I am not, in fact, a city person, no matter how hard I try to convince myself otherwise.
2.) I only like the city because I'm expending massive amounts on making myself like it.
3.) I do like the rain, but...
4.) I hate the noise, I hate the thin, harsh, chemical air, I hate how I can still feel the energy of the crowds of people surrounding me buzzing endlessly into the night and how it makes it so difficult to sleep here, I hate the cold, nervous air of everyone I meet on the street, the cliqueyness of the arts circles, the grey searing skylines that swallow me whole. Looking at pictures of other places like Osoyoos and the Island and southern Alberta makes me cry.
I don't plan to move any time soon unless some huge opportunity comes along unexpectedly. I have things still to do here. But eventually, within the next couple of years, I want to move to the west coast of Vancouver Island. Sooke, from my previous post, is wonderful but has few job opportunities. Tofino is probably a more likely choice, with its wealth of hotels and tourism-related jobs. Tofino has the Wickanninish Inn, which I would give my left arm to work for.
I'll finish learning Japanese until I can legally put it on my resume. I'll save up as much as I can over the next year or two until I can afford to buy a used car and cover the first couple month's rent.
Then I'll take the risk and follow my heart. Back me up on this one? ♥
Facts:
1.) I am not, in fact, a city person, no matter how hard I try to convince myself otherwise.
2.) I only like the city because I'm expending massive amounts on making myself like it.
3.) I do like the rain, but...
4.) I hate the noise, I hate the thin, harsh, chemical air, I hate how I can still feel the energy of the crowds of people surrounding me buzzing endlessly into the night and how it makes it so difficult to sleep here, I hate the cold, nervous air of everyone I meet on the street, the cliqueyness of the arts circles, the grey searing skylines that swallow me whole. Looking at pictures of other places like Osoyoos and the Island and southern Alberta makes me cry.
I don't plan to move any time soon unless some huge opportunity comes along unexpectedly. I have things still to do here. But eventually, within the next couple of years, I want to move to the west coast of Vancouver Island. Sooke, from my previous post, is wonderful but has few job opportunities. Tofino is probably a more likely choice, with its wealth of hotels and tourism-related jobs. Tofino has the Wickanninish Inn, which I would give my left arm to work for.
I'll finish learning Japanese until I can legally put it on my resume. I'll save up as much as I can over the next year or two until I can afford to buy a used car and cover the first couple month's rent.
Then I'll take the risk and follow my heart. Back me up on this one? ♥