brain fog, party butt, and dance is religion
i woke up with brain fog again. i smoked a J last night so there's no doubt about why i'm feeling it lol. oh well. i love the muscle-relaxant effect because damn everything is sore!
it usually takes me a few hours to get out of this fog OR if i want to lift the fog quicker, it means engaging in some exercise.
this weekend i'm staying at a hotel with some friends for a dance event - i really want to enjoy this but in many ways i feel like i've outgrown it. these friends are newer to dance than i am, so i live vicariously through their excitement and enthusiasm for it.
we're all in our mid-30's and i'm kinda thinking to myself, i want to hit the sack at like 12 midnight and i know they all want to dance until like 5 am. lol. and no they're not into drinking or smoking, just good old fashioned dancing until 5 am. i cant do it! my social battery and feet will be totally dead. im such a butt of the party these days.
i just want to bond and share some meaningful moments with them instead of just dancing all night which... btw i dance ALL WEEK religiously.
dance is my religion and so doing dance recreationally is like... fun for a bit but then i want to go back to the 'lab' so to speak.
maybe i take dance too seriously.
maybe i should just enjoy it all for what it is.