Mid 30's is like this?
Social media is such a ridiculous place to live mentally.
Ever since I've been 'healing' from some recent emotional trauma, i get all these life coaches on my feed telling me how to fix my life.
Most of the advice is excellent and has in many ways helped.
The other content on my algorithm is comedy.
Stand up comedians, sketches, clips from the simpsons lol.
This one comic recently said "Men never say 'I'm worth it!, I deserve abdundence in my life! I'm capable of anything i put my mind to!'"
No, they just fucking do it.
That's the pragmatic side of me, always has been.
I just fucking do it and deal with it.
I bury my emotions deep down and march forward into battle.
Then recently i was like, you know what? fuck it. I'm going to be expressive and display my emotions instead of making everyone feel comfortable while i suffer inside.
I expressed my anger,sadness,joy etc.
i really couldn't help myself because all of the emotion that i had been tucking away for years just burst into a gas explosion and leaked into different parts of my life, much of it in poor taste.
ultimately, i'm still learning..
how to cope with all parts of life, even the unfavorable ones.
lol this is my mid 30's i guess.