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i hate my body. it has truely just hit me. i was looking at photgraphs of myself from last year. and i had a beautiful stomach and lovely legs. and now what do i have to show for it? i a fuckin mess because i couldnt handle my problems. i hate them! i hate this! i feel like shit. im over tired, but i still cant sleep. i EXREMELY lonely, and i miss justin. not to mention that i am turning 20 in a week. this fuckin blows. i hate everything right now and i just want to go home. but then again, i dont because my mom is a bitch sometimes and im tired of hearing her bitch about my sister. i dont fuckin get it. im kinda stressed i guess. i dont ever let shit get to me. but things have been collapsing and im letting the little things bother me.
like people who suddenly dont talk to me anymore. i dont like that. gimme a reason why? what did i do. also, x boyfriends who have yoru shit and will not return it. well if that is the case i have no problem getting a police officer to escort me to his house to get my belongs. none what so ever! i just fuckin cant stand petty bs. i am seeing someone who is younger then him, and MUCH more mature.... i dont understand. whatever, if he wasnt such a momma's boy... ugh!
i seriously need a fuckin punch in the face... or like somone to fuckin smack me until i bleed. thats wha ti need. some rough fucking!!!! yes. the end.
IM SICK OF THESE FUCKIN SCARS.. I WISH I COULD JUST CUT THEM OUT. BUT THATS HOW THEY GOET THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE. I CANT FUCKIN DEAL WITH IT ANYMORE. I HATE IT. I JSUT WANT THEM COVERED UP FOR ALWAYS AND I DONT WANT ANOTHER SOUL TO SEE THEM. IM TIRED OF BEING TOLD THAT I AM DISGUSTING AND I DONT WAT PITY ANYMORE IT MAKES ME SICK. I HATE THE FACT THAT I AM IRRATIONAL. SUCH A FUCKIN BOY HOOD HERO! I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT ME. AND I THINK I WOUL DLOOK BETTER IN BLUE.
like people who suddenly dont talk to me anymore. i dont like that. gimme a reason why? what did i do. also, x boyfriends who have yoru shit and will not return it. well if that is the case i have no problem getting a police officer to escort me to his house to get my belongs. none what so ever! i just fuckin cant stand petty bs. i am seeing someone who is younger then him, and MUCH more mature.... i dont understand. whatever, if he wasnt such a momma's boy... ugh!
i seriously need a fuckin punch in the face... or like somone to fuckin smack me until i bleed. thats wha ti need. some rough fucking!!!! yes. the end.
IM SICK OF THESE FUCKIN SCARS.. I WISH I COULD JUST CUT THEM OUT. BUT THATS HOW THEY GOET THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE. I CANT FUCKIN DEAL WITH IT ANYMORE. I HATE IT. I JSUT WANT THEM COVERED UP FOR ALWAYS AND I DONT WANT ANOTHER SOUL TO SEE THEM. IM TIRED OF BEING TOLD THAT I AM DISGUSTING AND I DONT WAT PITY ANYMORE IT MAKES ME SICK. I HATE THE FACT THAT I AM IRRATIONAL. SUCH A FUCKIN BOY HOOD HERO! I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT ME. AND I THINK I WOUL DLOOK BETTER IN BLUE.