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I've been putting this off for quite some time now.
I miss him, I do. As much as Kate is right, about me forcing myself to ignore the emotions (a wonderful habit of mine), I miss him.
I WANT to stay awake until 2 a.m. and listen to how soft his voice gets as he gets more and more tired. He's sweeter then.
The hardest thing is knowing that right now we could be in the same room together, and while I would be watching him, I know he'd be looking away.
That hurts like hell.
I'm not sure why, but it does.
I don't know whether to give up or try harder.
I'm not sure if--
Hell. I'm not sure of anything.
Allrighty. For an actual update of sorts, to fill in what's been going on.
Work = blah.
We tried to go hunting wild hogs last week. We didn't see any, but we did see a couple of does. I would rather spend all hours of the day up in that tree stand watching the day grow old than to step foot inside another horse barn - that's how much I enjoyed it.
Mer. AND. Not just because he was there. It was the environment. God I'm ready to get out of this cement town and be back on solid earth.
And.. that's about it. I guess. Me go study.
:X
Hate study.
I miss him, I do. As much as Kate is right, about me forcing myself to ignore the emotions (a wonderful habit of mine), I miss him.
I WANT to stay awake until 2 a.m. and listen to how soft his voice gets as he gets more and more tired. He's sweeter then.
The hardest thing is knowing that right now we could be in the same room together, and while I would be watching him, I know he'd be looking away.
That hurts like hell.
I'm not sure why, but it does.
I don't know whether to give up or try harder.
I'm not sure if--
Hell. I'm not sure of anything.
Allrighty. For an actual update of sorts, to fill in what's been going on.
Work = blah.
We tried to go hunting wild hogs last week. We didn't see any, but we did see a couple of does. I would rather spend all hours of the day up in that tree stand watching the day grow old than to step foot inside another horse barn - that's how much I enjoyed it.
Mer. AND. Not just because he was there. It was the environment. God I'm ready to get out of this cement town and be back on solid earth.
And.. that's about it. I guess. Me go study.
:X
Hate study.