longing for the road
ive been in this town too long. i need to get out, but i dont know where to go or who with. it would be so nice just to get in my car and drive somewhere till i cant stay awake then check into some hotel, then wake up and drive again. but i dont even have a car that will make a trip around the bi-pass, let alone out of the state. i guess i need to get myself grounded first, have a place to live so i dont have to fucking clear everything with my parents. that really sucks, being back under my parents preverbial thumbs. i need to call more ads about roommates and stuff, get OUT OF THERE!!! they say that they understand my desire to get out of their house, but i really dont think they do. they know that i dont want to be there, but they dont know why and they dont really want it to happen. mabey that isnt totally fair, but that is how i feel when they keep asking me why i want to move out. why the fuck do you think? damn, did you live with your parents when you were nearly twenty? i dont know, i guess if im not willing to just do it for myelf then i dont deserve that kind of break. i guess i am where i belong.