Emotipe
I started off this journal because of a young lady I met at a place I worked at. Never did I think that Panera would be such a big influence on my life and livejournal. I think about the numerous times Ive come so close to deleting this. I started writing these journals maybe as a way for that certain person to become interested in me but it has turn into quite a handy tool. Its probably been about 5 years since I started using this and holy shit have a gone through alot. I wish I would have written in this thing more. I can say that I am going to start but I know that this is a lie. I know at this point I write in here for my own lack of retention of memories and feelings. EPITOME is not EMOTIPE. I didnt know what emo was then and still dont think there is such a thing but I can say if its a person (usually a guy) who has feelings and enjoys art and music and dressing in black and being different then the next time someone laughs that my username says emo I won't be upset.
So blah blah I may have written something simliar to that before. I know everytime I hit a high point where I feel on top of things I always end up in the back of the line again. But right now I do that this semister is challenging. I feel like im back at UNF with all the distractions but now I have the tools to conquer my classes and maintain a relatively active lifestyle--its whether or not I am passionate enough to mainstain all the leaves in this branch of my life.
So a note to myself. Things could be worst. You never know when your going to die. Enjoy life. Live life. Live life by your own definitions the people who criticize are just people, a few years from now you will think, "why did I let this person bring me down." You may also think, why didnt I try harder? Why didn't I make that decision? Why didn't I take that oppurtunity. This will happen but the main thing to focus on is how many of those will you let happen. Before you know it this semester will be over and you will think--that wasn't as bad as I thought I wish I spent a little bit more time studying or I wish I had trained a little smarter. A little bit, not alot, not enough to drive you nutts or hurt yourself but that little bit is enough to push yourself. Its enough to start a new life, a life that you want to live, that you think about living constantly but never take enough initiative to actually make it happen. Don't look for love. Don't envey other peoples looks or lives. Be happy with what you have and make the most of it because the person you will be in the future would be able to make more out of this but at the same time that same person will be doing something he shouldnt be doing, looking back, regretting, flooding the brain with what ifs. So make the most out of the things you do so that that person can make even more out of what it is he is to be doing...if he lives to see that day.
I love my life, I love myself, I trust in my instincts and I respect the past and learn from it so that I can live now.
So blah blah I may have written something simliar to that before. I know everytime I hit a high point where I feel on top of things I always end up in the back of the line again. But right now I do that this semister is challenging. I feel like im back at UNF with all the distractions but now I have the tools to conquer my classes and maintain a relatively active lifestyle--its whether or not I am passionate enough to mainstain all the leaves in this branch of my life.
So a note to myself. Things could be worst. You never know when your going to die. Enjoy life. Live life. Live life by your own definitions the people who criticize are just people, a few years from now you will think, "why did I let this person bring me down." You may also think, why didnt I try harder? Why didn't I make that decision? Why didn't I take that oppurtunity. This will happen but the main thing to focus on is how many of those will you let happen. Before you know it this semester will be over and you will think--that wasn't as bad as I thought I wish I spent a little bit more time studying or I wish I had trained a little smarter. A little bit, not alot, not enough to drive you nutts or hurt yourself but that little bit is enough to push yourself. Its enough to start a new life, a life that you want to live, that you think about living constantly but never take enough initiative to actually make it happen. Don't look for love. Don't envey other peoples looks or lives. Be happy with what you have and make the most of it because the person you will be in the future would be able to make more out of this but at the same time that same person will be doing something he shouldnt be doing, looking back, regretting, flooding the brain with what ifs. So make the most out of the things you do so that that person can make even more out of what it is he is to be doing...if he lives to see that day.
I love my life, I love myself, I trust in my instincts and I respect the past and learn from it so that I can live now.