Exerpt from my thoughts.
Maybe I just take shit too personally. Which I tend to do sometimes... Especially last night. I may have over reacted and been unjustly bitchy to a friend... who really didnt deserve it. I will be the first to admit when I've been a flake, and I have. Not by choice, I've just been working a lot, and then I'm tired and then there's homework, and the research paper and trying to have a social life and support everyone in their individual endeavors and I've just been slipping up. It makes me feel like shit because I really want to be there for everyone but I'm only person and sometimes I'm a little selfish and make myself top priority when really I want my friends and the people I care about to be... So, if you are one of the people that I have been neglecting lately, I apologize. It's not on purpose It's just I've been stretched a little thin lately. And the truth is, I don't really see it getting better in the near future... I will be working 2:30 - 10:30 about 4 days a week until the holiday season is over. And the off chance I have a few days off, I try to fit as much, and as many of my amazing friends in as I can. But I seriously get two days off. One of which is Wednesday... cool, what am I gonna do in the middle of the week? And the other is usually sunday... also cool. Who goes out on sunday night?! Anyway... this was partially a rant, and partially an apology. I really do love my friends. When I'm flake I feel awful I just suck at expressing how busy and worn out I get. So yeah... all the love to everyone, seriously, Like without my friends I wouldn't really be who I am. I just fuck up sometimes... I will definitely do my best to keep myself in line and on track when it comes to that! <3