just a lonely shell
why is love so hard to come by? alone for soo long with no one to care for me and love me. i feel as though this lonleyness is engulfing my inards, turning my soul into a forever empty abyss. ignored and rejected by those that i love. restricted from being myself in fear that i will only be shunned out and away from the world. but wat does it really mattter anywaz it feels as if that has already come to pass. my body feels like an empty shell. filled with nothin to want or live for. evrything gets harder.... im not sure how much longer i can endure this flame before giving in. no matter how hard i try i feel as though i will never succoumb to anything but a shell. never will this heart be filled with love from another. and so i bring the ending to a much sooner state of happenings.....