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So I ended up not having the talk with my boss today because she left at around noon to go to Wilmington to visit her mother. I'm concerned that if I wait too long to have the conversation I need to have with her, it'll weaken my resolve. But I guess it could also strengthen it if I have more time to decide what I want to say (and, most importantly, how to say it).
I won't go into details about it just yet, but she said something to me yesterday that made me realize more than ever that I'm not appreciated enough there and I really need find something else. I know, I know, I've said it so many times before, but I'm seriously ready to go. I made a decision that, hell or high water, I'm going to quit (and find a new job) before the Nick Cave show in October. And try my best to make sure that neither job -- neither my current one nor my hypothetical new one -- keeps me from being able to go to Washington DC. Because no one gets in my way of Nick Cave. (Well, except for maybe Blixa Bargeld.)
I know it sounds as though I'm blowing off my job to go to a concert and being risky and irresponsible, but I don't honestly feel like that's the case here. It's just not just about me wanting to to go Washington DC -- even though it's really important to me (and my boss would never understand why I hold something like that so important). I think that my realization that my boss probably won't be willing to let me take off just a couple of days to go to DC, despite the fact that I've been one of her most reliable and hardworking employees, was just an impetus for me to decide to find a new job ASAP.
In the year I've been there I've only asked for a few days off every few months. I've always told her about it several months in advance and I've gotten other people to fill in for me for the days I wouldn't be there. I have worked six days a week, have always arrived at work on time, have been sick ONCE, have always said yes when she's asked me to arrive at work earlier or stay for longer than usual so I can complete some task for her, and I've never flaked out on her. Not to mention that when she hired me she told me that I would be able to switch off my Saturdays with my coworkers, but I've never been able to do that. She's always just assumed that I would be working every Saturday. I'm not saying I'm perfect -- sure, I've made mistakes there. But on the whole, I've been a far better employee than many of the other people I've worked with. Oh, and did I mention that I make only 8 bucks an hour? But the last couple times I asked for just a few days to one day off, she's acted absolutely scandalized and outraged. Meanwhile her fucking SON, when he had the same job as me (cashier), would consistently arrive late or not at all, would call in "sick" almost daily, would be rude to the customers, and would sometimes just leave in the middle of the day because he got "frustrated." Now that he does other odd jobs at the store instead of being the cashier, he isn't quite the douchebag he used to be...but still. The fact that he got away with things that would have gotten me FIRED infuriates me. And what does she pay her son? 10 dollars an hour.
I'm just sick of her bullshit. If nothing else, I need a change of scenery and pace. I spent hours yesterday looking at job postings on Craigslist and other places. I'm going to find something else, even if I have to take another crappy job for a few months before I find something better.
*frustrated scream*
So, yeah. Please excuse my ranting. How about we talk about something a bit more lighthearted, eh? :-P
I'm really excited about seeing The Dark Knight soon. I've never been a comic book fan, but I loved Batman Begins for its darker, more realistic, less campy approach to the whole Batman mythology. I was looking forward to its sequel even way before Ledger died, and so far the movie's been getting amazing reviews, which builds up my anticipation even more. We're probably going to see it at the IMAX theater...should be awesome.
I don't know if you all have seen the Joker-ized LJ icon fad that's been going on, but it amuses me terribly and I just had to make my own Joker-ized icon of myself (see above). I made it in Paint so it looks kind of crappy, but that's okay because it's supposed to. I love the Joker-ized icons because it looks like a madman really did hack into peoples' LJ accounts and vandalize their icons. XD
I won't go into details about it just yet, but she said something to me yesterday that made me realize more than ever that I'm not appreciated enough there and I really need find something else. I know, I know, I've said it so many times before, but I'm seriously ready to go. I made a decision that, hell or high water, I'm going to quit (and find a new job) before the Nick Cave show in October. And try my best to make sure that neither job -- neither my current one nor my hypothetical new one -- keeps me from being able to go to Washington DC. Because no one gets in my way of Nick Cave. (Well, except for maybe Blixa Bargeld.)
I know it sounds as though I'm blowing off my job to go to a concert and being risky and irresponsible, but I don't honestly feel like that's the case here. It's just not just about me wanting to to go Washington DC -- even though it's really important to me (and my boss would never understand why I hold something like that so important). I think that my realization that my boss probably won't be willing to let me take off just a couple of days to go to DC, despite the fact that I've been one of her most reliable and hardworking employees, was just an impetus for me to decide to find a new job ASAP.
In the year I've been there I've only asked for a few days off every few months. I've always told her about it several months in advance and I've gotten other people to fill in for me for the days I wouldn't be there. I have worked six days a week, have always arrived at work on time, have been sick ONCE, have always said yes when she's asked me to arrive at work earlier or stay for longer than usual so I can complete some task for her, and I've never flaked out on her. Not to mention that when she hired me she told me that I would be able to switch off my Saturdays with my coworkers, but I've never been able to do that. She's always just assumed that I would be working every Saturday. I'm not saying I'm perfect -- sure, I've made mistakes there. But on the whole, I've been a far better employee than many of the other people I've worked with. Oh, and did I mention that I make only 8 bucks an hour? But the last couple times I asked for just a few days to one day off, she's acted absolutely scandalized and outraged. Meanwhile her fucking SON, when he had the same job as me (cashier), would consistently arrive late or not at all, would call in "sick" almost daily, would be rude to the customers, and would sometimes just leave in the middle of the day because he got "frustrated." Now that he does other odd jobs at the store instead of being the cashier, he isn't quite the douchebag he used to be...but still. The fact that he got away with things that would have gotten me FIRED infuriates me. And what does she pay her son? 10 dollars an hour.
I'm just sick of her bullshit. If nothing else, I need a change of scenery and pace. I spent hours yesterday looking at job postings on Craigslist and other places. I'm going to find something else, even if I have to take another crappy job for a few months before I find something better.
*frustrated scream*
So, yeah. Please excuse my ranting. How about we talk about something a bit more lighthearted, eh? :-P
I'm really excited about seeing The Dark Knight soon. I've never been a comic book fan, but I loved Batman Begins for its darker, more realistic, less campy approach to the whole Batman mythology. I was looking forward to its sequel even way before Ledger died, and so far the movie's been getting amazing reviews, which builds up my anticipation even more. We're probably going to see it at the IMAX theater...should be awesome.
I don't know if you all have seen the Joker-ized LJ icon fad that's been going on, but it amuses me terribly and I just had to make my own Joker-ized icon of myself (see above). I made it in Paint so it looks kind of crappy, but that's okay because it's supposed to. I love the Joker-ized icons because it looks like a madman really did hack into peoples' LJ accounts and vandalize their icons. XD