(no subject)
so it's been a while
a long while
for reason
good reason
nothing has been happening.
nothing worth mentioning, at least
lies... there was one thing
one thing worth mentioning, that is.
4 letters, a name
dani
true, she lives like 500 miles away...
true, indeed
however
you know that one song such great heights... postal service... iron and wine... garden state... etc.
yeah, it's like that, you see
you know... i don't even know her that well
but it's like... if i did, it would just make things worse
or better, whatever.
regardless.
regardless.
i like blank spaces.
it's like this, you see... she's the only one i've ever thought clearly about.
clearly. crystal clear.
that's what it's like now, you see... i know you don't see... and if anyone who knew the both of us actually read this journal, they would be dumbfounded... astounded, even
that perhaps, it might be... permanent.
if i had money, i would buy a ring
a ring, you know... gold and carbon -- crystal form... how appropriate, crystal form
but, i don't know sometimes... like i really don't know
at all
but you have no idea what i'm talking about
i don't know how to save money, you see
it all just disappears, rather quickly
but you know, if i could save money, i would buy that ring.
but i can't... so maybe i won't
ever
who knows... really, who knows?
regardless.
regardless.
i've distracted myself again.
it's like this, you see
one day, out of the blue i get an IM from dani, haven't talked to her in years, no literally, years.
and she starts talking about how much she's been thinking about us
not me, us
that made me smile
there is no lust in us
my hands trembled as i was typing
a few months past
but it seemed like a blink before we were embraced in the middle of the desert
past indiscretions slow fading into the background, it was only a matter of time
it's only a matter of time now before, you know... that ring... that ring.
thinking too far, i know i am...
i'm just hoping i can get the time off to head back up there...
only one thing stands between her and, as far as i'm concerned
fucking chicago, i fucking hate chicago
a long while
for reason
good reason
nothing has been happening.
nothing worth mentioning, at least
lies... there was one thing
one thing worth mentioning, that is.
4 letters, a name
dani
true, she lives like 500 miles away...
true, indeed
however
you know that one song such great heights... postal service... iron and wine... garden state... etc.
yeah, it's like that, you see
you know... i don't even know her that well
but it's like... if i did, it would just make things worse
or better, whatever.
regardless.
regardless.
i like blank spaces.
it's like this, you see... she's the only one i've ever thought clearly about.
clearly. crystal clear.
that's what it's like now, you see... i know you don't see... and if anyone who knew the both of us actually read this journal, they would be dumbfounded... astounded, even
that perhaps, it might be... permanent.
if i had money, i would buy a ring
a ring, you know... gold and carbon -- crystal form... how appropriate, crystal form
but, i don't know sometimes... like i really don't know
at all
but you have no idea what i'm talking about
i don't know how to save money, you see
it all just disappears, rather quickly
but you know, if i could save money, i would buy that ring.
but i can't... so maybe i won't
ever
who knows... really, who knows?
regardless.
regardless.
i've distracted myself again.
it's like this, you see
one day, out of the blue i get an IM from dani, haven't talked to her in years, no literally, years.
and she starts talking about how much she's been thinking about us
not me, us
that made me smile
there is no lust in us
my hands trembled as i was typing
a few months past
but it seemed like a blink before we were embraced in the middle of the desert
past indiscretions slow fading into the background, it was only a matter of time
it's only a matter of time now before, you know... that ring... that ring.
thinking too far, i know i am...
i'm just hoping i can get the time off to head back up there...
only one thing stands between her and, as far as i'm concerned
fucking chicago, i fucking hate chicago