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It's that time of the year again. Every year around this time I get a little depressed just because of what I see at the store. Usually Walmart has rows that are devoted to a certain merchandise that goes with what is in season. No, I'm not talking about a certain holiday. I'm talking about all of the cool things that they have out for college students to take with them when they go off to college. I see the cool bed sheets, the pots and pans, the cork boards and I can't help but be a little depressed.
I wished I'd gone off to college when I'd had the chance. I would have had a great time and made the best of it. I also feel like I would have learned independence from my parents and that my mom would not have been so controlling over my life. Every time I take a look at the supplies that all college kids are getting I can't but wish I was one of them. That I could somehow start over.
I know that this post must make me sound as though I am a stuck up girl. I mean I am thankful that I lived at home and that I was able to actually go to college. However, there are some experiences that I think every person should experience at one point or another. The feeling of your parents leaving you at a place where you know that you are alone is one of them. The feeling of accomplishment when you know that you've made it through your first semester without someone always looking over your shoulder or telling you what to do. I feel as though it is a time where you find out who you are as a person and how you will live your life and I feel like I've missed that chance.
Again, sorry for having the emo post. Most of the time I am alright with the decisions that I make and I look forward to the future but sometimes I feel like I am trapped and that I am going to be living the same life for the rest of my life. Oh well, at least I don't have to see the same things at Walmart again until the next year. It also doesn't help that one of my Jobies has gone off to college and I see how excited she is and how independent she is getting from her parents. God, I hope that I'm not going to live vicariously through my kids when they go off to college.
On a happy note, I am waiting for Maggie to call me so that I can go out with her to celebrate her birthday!
I wished I'd gone off to college when I'd had the chance. I would have had a great time and made the best of it. I also feel like I would have learned independence from my parents and that my mom would not have been so controlling over my life. Every time I take a look at the supplies that all college kids are getting I can't but wish I was one of them. That I could somehow start over.
I know that this post must make me sound as though I am a stuck up girl. I mean I am thankful that I lived at home and that I was able to actually go to college. However, there are some experiences that I think every person should experience at one point or another. The feeling of your parents leaving you at a place where you know that you are alone is one of them. The feeling of accomplishment when you know that you've made it through your first semester without someone always looking over your shoulder or telling you what to do. I feel as though it is a time where you find out who you are as a person and how you will live your life and I feel like I've missed that chance.
Again, sorry for having the emo post. Most of the time I am alright with the decisions that I make and I look forward to the future but sometimes I feel like I am trapped and that I am going to be living the same life for the rest of my life. Oh well, at least I don't have to see the same things at Walmart again until the next year. It also doesn't help that one of my Jobies has gone off to college and I see how excited she is and how independent she is getting from her parents. God, I hope that I'm not going to live vicariously through my kids when they go off to college.
On a happy note, I am waiting for Maggie to call me so that I can go out with her to celebrate her birthday!