my eyes burn...
we all know those cheap lyrics. damn good song.
past few days, nothing. not a lot of stuff. missing people, a real summer, and making music.
today, i got drunk. yes, i did. we went to laser quest. we being robbie, chris, nick, derrick, branden, jessica, amanda, and myself. it was gnarly. then the BBQ. ive never been so un comfortable in a while. for amny reasons, then i jsut gave up on caring and drank my little self to stupidity. i jsut wanted to stop thinking for a little while. ive been upset lately.
i randomly had a fucking panic attack friday night. i jsut freaked out. i wanted to cry so god damn bad but jsut couldnt. yea, im a pussy. i dont care. i couldnt help it. i have no idea why. no clue, what so fucking ever. who knows.
i miss shar. so fucking much. its ridiculous.
i pissed jessica off today, thats all that needs to be said about that. but im sure she really jsut doesnt give a fuck.
oh well.
im going home soon for the rest of the month. its gonna be gnarly. i want a party. ill finally be 16, and i always run around tos ee people. you can all see me. hows that fuckers? well people back home arent fuckers. just some. like the shit talkers. i dont like them.
my birthday is in 3 days now. ill be 16.
it sure as fuck doesnt feel like it.
i think i need ot go abck to taking meds. i dunno.
i love all my friends. even the ones that dont care about hwo i feel about them or i dont takl to or see often.
love,
the ONLY zoey fuck.
god damn bastards.