cuase you're so beautiful. . .
SOme things I might never get.Like why justin is such a dick.Why he unplugs the internet cable and says "it doesn't work, you broke it" you know..I just fixed it today.....WHy my sister gets away with murder...why both of my sisters get away with murder...and you know I could...but I don't....I hate it...I hate that I wasn't like them..I don't want them to be like me, but I still hate it..
CAn you tell I don't like change? Maybe its because I have to change so much...I hate it now..
Living with my grandma was like living in a fucking iceage..We couldn't do anything..and then we moved and claire did more at 8 then I did at 13..and I can't make up for it..
claire always had it the easy way..and shawn too..they don't remember when he left..they don't remember mocing..they jsut remembering being there but not nowing why..I wish I didn't know..ugh..forget it...it only because when I get pissed off at justin I think about that..and thats everyday..
I want to talk to Jeff now...He seems to make it all disappear...
My mom said I looked crappy last night..My face was all red but she couldn't tell that I was crying..Shawn asked me.."were you crying?" and I said no.. she said "I never saw you cry before"...and then I said "cause I couldn't". . she didn't get it and didn't say anything...
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CAn you tell I don't like change? Maybe its because I have to change so much...I hate it now..
Living with my grandma was like living in a fucking iceage..We couldn't do anything..and then we moved and claire did more at 8 then I did at 13..and I can't make up for it..
claire always had it the easy way..and shawn too..they don't remember when he left..they don't remember mocing..they jsut remembering being there but not nowing why..I wish I didn't know..ugh..forget it...it only because when I get pissed off at justin I think about that..and thats everyday..
I want to talk to Jeff now...He seems to make it all disappear...
My mom said I looked crappy last night..My face was all red but she couldn't tell that I was crying..Shawn asked me.."were you crying?" and I said no.. she said "I never saw you cry before"...and then I said "cause I couldn't". . she didn't get it and didn't say anything...
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