Did you know how you would move me? When the lights came upon us and we saw the everglow.

[emotakeoverme]

memories are coming back to me, and it's making me rather sad. memories of North Carolina, memories of Emily, and..well memories of Bret. i don't know where my memories are taking me with Bret though. i guess I miss the presence of him around me, miss him always next to me. And for the past week, i've felt so alone. when i came back to school, i saw so many people just paired up. a dear friend of mine, paired up with others during class, seeing people happy, laughing. i was talking to someone yesterday, i asked him if he got butterflies or get nervous when he was around his girlfriend, he said he did. and well, i'd give anything to feel that again. to let go of ones hand and feel your own and it's all sweaty from the hands being so tightly together for such a long time. i miss waking up excited to know that i get to see someone special to me today. i mean, i just want to wake up in someone elses arms. i want go on walks, i want to be at there house, iI want to not be uncomfortable when i'm around them but still feel those butterflies of excitement.

Bleh today and tomorrow should be good days though.
I'm staying at a good friend Katie's house tonight and we're gonna watcch invader zim-a-thon, and maybe work on her prom dress. she got nominated for prom queen, i'm so proud of her. Then tomorrow I get to hang with people I havn't since January. I can't wait.

yesterday ashley dropped me off at the providence place mall where i just walked around the third floor until someone noticed that they had seen me before so i worked me way to the 2nd floor then back to the 3rd...then for about 2 hours i was in borders. i love that store. i got a new cd in newbury. mae-the everglow. man this is some very very good music. i can't seem to stop myself from listening to it all the time now.