Limbo
My heart and head are in limbo.
Ups and down of not knowing when I am going to see Geoff is taking its toll on me. It doesnt help being around Niki right now, I feel like a constant third wheel. I come in the room, they leave. Its not their fault, I am not blaming anyone. It just makes not being in Vegas a lot harder.
Time differences are killing me as well. Its 10 my time, I just want to talk to him for a little and fall asleep. Its only 7 his time though, his day isnt even over. I hate it, I want to spend all day talking to him. If I cant be there at least I can hear his voice. Or I could be creepy and watch his old bands dvd, that has been ended though due to jealous people stealing dvds. Its really sad, not being able to handle that someone who you are MILDLY interested in has feelings for someone she has known a lot longer. So they got insecure and took the only thing I really had. I hate people.
I want nothing more than to just be in Vegas, I dont even care that he still has to take his driving test. I could just sit there and stare at a wall, I wouldnt care as long as I was near him. And then when he gets his license, we can go out and celebrate that night. How amazing would that be? I wish he would see that and not be so worried about me being bored.
I guess it wouldnt be that bad if i knew when I was going. If I had another countdown, if I had a job to keep my mind busy. I dont want to focus on being away from him, but with my current living situation and the constant Vegas consversations/commericals/ect, he is all I can think about.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Get me to fucking Vegas so I can fall in love and be retardly happy. Is that so fucking hard.
Ups and down of not knowing when I am going to see Geoff is taking its toll on me. It doesnt help being around Niki right now, I feel like a constant third wheel. I come in the room, they leave. Its not their fault, I am not blaming anyone. It just makes not being in Vegas a lot harder.
Time differences are killing me as well. Its 10 my time, I just want to talk to him for a little and fall asleep. Its only 7 his time though, his day isnt even over. I hate it, I want to spend all day talking to him. If I cant be there at least I can hear his voice. Or I could be creepy and watch his old bands dvd, that has been ended though due to jealous people stealing dvds. Its really sad, not being able to handle that someone who you are MILDLY interested in has feelings for someone she has known a lot longer. So they got insecure and took the only thing I really had. I hate people.
I want nothing more than to just be in Vegas, I dont even care that he still has to take his driving test. I could just sit there and stare at a wall, I wouldnt care as long as I was near him. And then when he gets his license, we can go out and celebrate that night. How amazing would that be? I wish he would see that and not be so worried about me being bored.
I guess it wouldnt be that bad if i knew when I was going. If I had another countdown, if I had a job to keep my mind busy. I dont want to focus on being away from him, but with my current living situation and the constant Vegas consversations/commericals/ect, he is all I can think about.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Get me to fucking Vegas so I can fall in love and be retardly happy. Is that so fucking hard.