And so the story continues...

[emosongwriter]

You know, I have been told all of my life to "tough it out" and to not let my problems get the "best of me". But when the best is gone, and all you have left to give to others is the remains... what's the point? I am tired of being told the same advice, but I am more tired of just having the problems that lead to this repetitive advice. I know everyone is trying to help, but if I have everyone trying to help me... who is helping them? Life seems to be an endless problem that we all have to deal with. Some, conquer this problem with a positive outlook; whereas others, fall to the problems and sometimes let it get not just the best of them, but all of them. I... am somewhere in between the two. The medium. I do not know how to lean towards a positive outlook when it seems that when I close out one problem, a new problem arises. I try to give everyone what they want, try to make everyone happy... but in doing that, I am making someone angry, someone is getting the opposite of what they want. So how to I be faithful to everyone? It seems impossible. But we are lead to believe nothing is impossible. It all stems from happiness. We all strive to achieve, many make bad choices, and lose sight of it. With me, it is always a tennis match. I am happy one day, but the next day, I find myself a day late and a dollar short. Happiness, whether it last a moment or a lifetime, is a great thing. I am always impatient to have it, but when it does come... it is amazing. There is nothing quite like it. The only way I could define happiness is when everything around you seems right, and everyone is calm. You are not necessarily problem free, but the problems are not big enough to be worthy for concern. That is how happiness has been for me, though it has been a long time since I could declare myself "happy". But I am working at that. You can never truly repair and reconstruct something unless you start with the foundation. I know what I need to work at, and I shall. My life is going to change for the better. It is going to change for good.

Good night,
David

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