she, shes my ultimate weapon.

[emosongsonmute]

im holding my breath,
i can almost do it as well as im holding my tears back.
a certain amount of false expecations added with
a bit of wishful thinking can result in the greatest of falls,
with my eyes shut, i fell and broke to pieces before i even hit the ground.

i feel tired, my body wont recover after swallowing this bitter pill you threw in my face.
the lines will remain unbroken and our paths will never cross.
a sigh of relief is yet to come, i am now sure on where we stand.
the lights are dimming, the darkness is making its way in.
i can die right now but would you let me?

I admit that i'm not perfect, i never said i was,
the lack of similarities between our fading footsteps
shows that even if i was, i wont be perfect for you.
I'm already holding on to something dearer,
someone that you're not nearly half as good as.
so why did you even cross my mind?

i feel tired, looking away from the easy way out
has never been simple.
but i did, and now im waiting. waiting to grasp the one
im giving up everything for.