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I have been dealing with a lot lately. I know there are a lot of positive things in my life but I am also battle a lot of uncommon things. My disease is getting worse, my wrist joints are bulging out. When I walk my knees pop in and out of place. If I postion my foot a certain way my toes pop out of place and tear up my ligaments and tendons and leave me in a sudden intense pain for several minutes. My hands also have the tendency to do this along with incredible weakness. I have inflammation in my lungs and sternum so often have chest pains and occasionally stop breathing at night when I sleep. Mat wakes me up. I also have the numbness and tingling that happens if I sit a certain way for too long. On top of my own health issues I am still also dealing with my depression and anxiety that makes certain everyday task impossible. Theres another thing going on to and I don't know how to deal with it. It doesn't involve my body or being directly but It is a person in my life that is suffering and I am the only person there to take care of them. I can barely take care of myself let alone another adult and this has been a struggle. I just don't know what to do anymore. I guess i