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Warning- None of this will probably make any sense to whomever is reading this. Its completely written in stream of consciousness.
I hate that. I hate this. I miss a lot from back when. I still wish it was back then sometimes. Maybe I need this. Maybe I should just concentrate on other things even though I can't seem to do that no matter how hard I try. I was really happy. I looked foward to your messages and talking for hours and hours and hours at a time. I miss coming back from soccer or church and seeing your messages. I miss soccer. I miss lacrosse. I miss St.Gabe's youth group when I was on the board. I miss not caring so much. I miss not feeling so alone all the time. I hate homework. I hate school. Who doesnt. On the contrary, I actually like work, sometimes. I don't want to grow up, but I do want to grow up. I wish I was a completely different person. I miss stupid arguements about whose BETTERERER or BESTESTESTEST. I miss taking forever just to say goodnight cause we'd get off topic or I'd get ADD. I miss laying under the stars with cool kids and discussing the meaning of life. I can't wait to get away from here, but at the same time I don't want to leave. White chocolate is good. That honestly makes me sick. It hurts. I hate not knowing anything that goes on with myself. I hate how Ms.Warr is a nazi about everything. I hate that I'm way too apathetic. I wish I were actually really good at something. I'm scared that I'll never figure out anything about what I want when it comes to everything. I like this song. Your such a liar about everything. I hate winter. I swear I am absolutely nothing. I know you don't care as much as you pretend like you do. Quit acting. I know its all just an act so cut the crap. Theres nothing ever wrong. Ever.
I could go on, but I have to go eat dinner.
I hate that. I hate this. I miss a lot from back when. I still wish it was back then sometimes. Maybe I need this. Maybe I should just concentrate on other things even though I can't seem to do that no matter how hard I try. I was really happy. I looked foward to your messages and talking for hours and hours and hours at a time. I miss coming back from soccer or church and seeing your messages. I miss soccer. I miss lacrosse. I miss St.Gabe's youth group when I was on the board. I miss not caring so much. I miss not feeling so alone all the time. I hate homework. I hate school. Who doesnt. On the contrary, I actually like work, sometimes. I don't want to grow up, but I do want to grow up. I wish I was a completely different person. I miss stupid arguements about whose BETTERERER or BESTESTESTEST. I miss taking forever just to say goodnight cause we'd get off topic or I'd get ADD. I miss laying under the stars with cool kids and discussing the meaning of life. I can't wait to get away from here, but at the same time I don't want to leave. White chocolate is good. That honestly makes me sick. It hurts. I hate not knowing anything that goes on with myself. I hate how Ms.Warr is a nazi about everything. I hate that I'm way too apathetic. I wish I were actually really good at something. I'm scared that I'll never figure out anything about what I want when it comes to everything. I like this song. Your such a liar about everything. I hate winter. I swear I am absolutely nothing. I know you don't care as much as you pretend like you do. Quit acting. I know its all just an act so cut the crap. Theres nothing ever wrong. Ever.
I could go on, but I have to go eat dinner.