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[emoses234]

so i called home on monday and my mom had double bad news for me. something was happening with my dad (some of you know but i just dont wanna say it here) and my grandmother was most likely going to die that day. so, yeah some stuff happened and with the advice from my friends i came home early. it wasnt a big deal though. i only missed 2 classes. i talked to my mom at like 10ish and by the time i got to work at 2 she had died. the wake was tuesday night and the funeral was this morning. it was really nice. and i also saw all of my family that i havent seen in like 10 years. but all this really made me think. it made me really sad that i hadnt seen these people in so long. i wish we had stayed in touch. they all knew each other and i was struggling jsut to recognize people. i actually recognized more people than i thought i would. but even still, i felt reallt shitty cuz i never see my dads side of my family. i have way more cousins and stuff on that side and i never get to see them. i didnt even know how many there were or all of their names or anything. i dont know. im rambling. whatever...

i just miss so many people. and even people i probabl shouldnt. im so lame...