This sucks...
Well to begin with when we got back from Phoenix I hug out with Feeney at Matt's then Jaid's and during our stay at Jaid's I started this game that I like to call tests. Basically, I test things like whether he can be dominant by me pushing him up against a wall, kissing him and then stopping to see if he does it back. Or for more deeper shit I pretend get mad at him and say stuff like "I don't like you anymore, we're over, go away I don't want to talk to you." type shit so I may see how he reacts...which he did react but not very good...he got all emo real fast-so I stopped. Anywho, he ends up coming over the next day and we just hang out and watch movies and chill(while secretly kissing quickly when my mom is not around-hehe) and I'm really beginning to feel better about our relationship and thinking yeah---this might last longer than I had first imagened. Now here's what sucks---after the second day I kissed him this week my throat kinda got a little scratchy, but then went away. Then yesterday we went to the Flagstaff Mall and hung out and kissed here and there and my throat began to hurt a little more...I am now typing this and I have strep thoat-again. I was fine on the weekend cause i had not kissed him but now I'm back to being sick and I think he's giving me it. Now--I might not be right but what if I am...you can't go out with someone and not kiss them cause it just wouldn't work and I'm not about to continue kissing him and keep getting sick on that account. So now I'm in a bad situation and have no clue what the fuck to do...and being sick is not the best time either and GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! This sucks...major monkey balls. I even missed Dakota's promtion this morning cause I got sick overnight and I have school starting Mon. and I still have my phobias and other shit to worry about and and and......meep.