I Want It Back.

[emoroxrsmysoxrs]

I really miss him right now. I keep listening to "New American Classic" by Taking Back Sunday and the song reminds me of him so much. I just wish that he was here...just so I could tell him that I still love him. So I could tell him that I don't want things to change like they are. I hate this and I honestly wish that it wouldn't have happened.

There's nothing that I wouldn't give to be driving down the rode with him...Windows rolled down...Listening to him sing. But it's just not an option anymore. Why did this have to happen? Why couldn't I just tell him how I feel? Why did I let things get so out of hand?

Everyone keeps telling me that things are going to be okay. But how can everything be good if I don't accept this? I miss him so much...but I still see him all the time. How can you miss someone that you're always with? Is it really possible?

I tried calling him last night because I was with Melissa, Zach, Cecily, and Tim. I was the only one that didn't have someone. I hated it. I want everything to be like it was before.

I saw Dan. I almost felt compelled to talk to him about everything...but I didn't do it. It could only hurt me more, right?

I just don't know about anything anymore. Nothing makes sense.