Kiss will kill me part 1
I love that foolish greazy eyebrows Taec. Or so,i did.
That idiot loves Jay. Jaebum. Our Ex-leader.
Frankly speaking, i still don’t get my feeling myself. How could i come to love him when i saw it with my own eyes the way he looked at Jay. It was full of affection. It was how you look at a person you think is fragile and you want to keep them forever all for you. It was too tender, for a Taecyeon.
How could i come to love him when i know better than anyone else how he tried to hug Jay while saying it as on behalf of fanservice. Or when he piggy back him, when our ex-leader was too tired after an MV Shoot.
It hurt him. The fact that we could not accompany Jay to the airport, for our last farewell. At that time honestly i did not understand it myself of how should i really feel inside. We were about to lose our leader. But for me what remains the most was how Taecyeon held his hands and looked at him in the eyes as if saying, “please don’t go”. And seeing my beloved one looking at his beloved person’s back til it was out of sight.
Isn’t it kinda funny how his attempts to make Jay fall in love made me fall instead ?
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“Taecyeon”, i said as i shook that big body of him,”wake up. We have a morning practice today”
But, no reaction.
“Taec”, i tweaked his left ear. Then i let out a deep sigh. Why is it so hard to wake this beast up ? Junho once said,”You and Taecyeon ? The sleeping beast and the beauty ?”
“Okay hyung ... i’m up already ...”, finally the beast moved. I sighed in relief and quickly made my way down our bunk bed,”we don’t have much time left. Get up quick, i’ve prepared your clothes and your breakfast. Your clothes are on your computer desk and as for your breakfast, just hope Chansung didn’t eat it”
It’s been like this every morning. I’d get up earlier than all the other members and cook for them as they take a bath. After that i’d directly go prepare Taecyeon’s clothes just because i know if i let him prepare his clothes all by himself while he’s sleepy it would be such a fashion disaster.
“Awww it’s mommy. Thank you for today’s omelette, mom”, Wooyoung said as he handed over the plate to me
“I hit his head slowly with a spoon,”Jang Wooyoung. We aren’t playing a family game.”
“Have you woke daddy up ? “
“Ya, Hwang Chansung, say that once again and i’ll reduce your breakfast portion, now just give me all your dirty plates and all, i’ll wash them. Just as usual, Chansung you go throw the rubbish, Junho put all the dirty clothes in the washing machine, Wooyoung please do clean up the living room where you slept. Taecyeon, when you’ve done eating, do put your plates and all in the washing room. I’m gonna wash them up”
I heaped all the dirty place and stuff and turned the tap. Water started to flow and i began to wash them up just like usual.
Clang.
Before i turned my head to look, i felt big and muscular hands were wrapping my waist. And a head being placed on my shoulder.
“Taecyeon, if you’re still sleepy, go sleep in the car. By the way, you’re heavy”
“Marry me,Junsu”
“No”, i answered without stopping cleaning the plates
“How cruel. After i’ve been proposing to you for 43 days in a row never did once you say yes”
“I’m not the only who can wake you up in the morning, preparing your clothes and your breakfast. There must be a nice girl out there who is willing to serve your every single thing instead of me. Now, will you please move your arms off of my waist and go inside the car ?”
He then unwrapped my waist just as i told him.
As he said, that proposal wasn’t the first time. And, i know, he didn’t mean it. It was just a morning prank.
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Damn. I thought we would be having a dance practice today. I didn’t take a bath purposely and it turned out we only had a vocal practice instead for our upcoming new album. Now, i found myself washing my entire body in the JYPE’s bathroom.
The JYPE’s bathroom is just wide enough. It has got 10 showers and each are separated by wall which makes it consists of 10 room. But, closed by curtains. Not doors.
All of a sudden somebody opened my curtain, i surprised and turned to see,
Taecyeon.
“Oh it’s really you Junsu-hyung”
“What the hell with it’s really me, just close the goddamn curtain already !”,i said as i take my towel to cover my private part.
But he stayed quiet. While staring at me.
“What ? What are you looking at? “
“Nothing. I’m just wondering, you have got nice abs. Why don’t you show it more often ? Such a shame”
“OK TAECYEON JUST CLOSE THE CURTAIN ALREADY !”, this time i screamed harder. Taecyeon smiled and closed the curtain.
I fell on my knees. Waters still flowing out of the shower. Even now my towel is wet from the water. But my heart beat so fast, like it was going to skip a beat.
Taecyeon definitely saw it. He saw me naked.
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I loved him. Or, precisely, i DID love him.
Since when did it gone ? If you ask me when, probably since Jay’s return to America and Taecyeon would always talk to him on the instant messenger every night. Probably since Taecyeon hugged his pillow every night and told me just how much he missed Jay. Probably since i got too tired of acknowledging the fact that Taecyeon’s only looking at Jay.
I don’t know whether a love would really disappear due to a broken heart. Even if it did, would it be gone completely ? Would i forget Taecyeon forever ?
Me and Taecyeon,we were just the same everyday. I wold wake him up then prepare his clothes and breakfast. With just a slight difference,
“Hyung”, Taecyeon wrapped his arms around my waist,again, for countless times,”would you marry me ?”
“No”
“Would you be my boyfriend then ?”
“No”
“Why ? I thought it’s the best way to get to know each other more before marriage”
“You dumbass, like i’m going to marry you”
“Well, but Taecyeon and Junsu love forever right ?”, he unwrapped his arms around me and leaned himself on the refrigerator next to where i was standing,”we were so lovey-dovey that time. Oh, i miss wild bunny”
I kept on washing the plates. Pretending didn’t hear his last sentence.
No you don’t. You miss Jay. I know it. Because you’d secretly re-watching wild bunny every night to see the part where you and Jay got together, and watching his music video cover on youtube.
“I’m done with the washing. Let’s get into the car.”
How i wish i could tell Taecyeon, if his words were really serious, i’m not the substitute of Jay.
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