Its been a while.
Its been along time since I've written in here.. But since my myspace is something that people involved in my everyday life read.. I guess I will write here about whats really been on my mind.. My band sucks.. When I joined .. it was a great opportunity.. It was one of my favorite bands.. Now its a bunch of crap that, while actually progressing forward in the "music biz" seems to be going nowhere.. its all just a buch of backstabbing high school bullshit.. and the band that i once loved as a fan has become some twisted amalgamation of what it once was .. and i cant help but think.. that I did it a disservice by ever helping it get started again.. some bands should stay broken up.. and be remembered for what they were.
I used to be in bands because I loved playing music.. I still do love playing music.. but this whole thing seems like I am just putting my whole life on the backburner, just to get shit on in the end. I have already sacrificed so many things to make this work.. while others live off my sweat.. and in the meantime I lose what means the most to me in the process.. my friends/ relationships suffer because I chose to put my "career" first .. in hopes of making it somehow.. I just wonder how much my soul can take of this.. This band has one of the highest member turnover rates i can think of.. but i dont wanna be just another statistic.. it seems like the deeper i get into this the more i need to make it work.. I wish i could just not care and "enjoy the ride".. but that is slowly becoming impossible these days .. even for someone as laid back as me... If I am stressing .. you know there's some serious problems..
My head is going to pop.
That being said.. I had a few good thoughts today.. which made the crap seem bearable.. they all involved a 4 hour drive.
and i like it.
ok .. rant over. please comment if you care. I could use some moral support.
I used to be in bands because I loved playing music.. I still do love playing music.. but this whole thing seems like I am just putting my whole life on the backburner, just to get shit on in the end. I have already sacrificed so many things to make this work.. while others live off my sweat.. and in the meantime I lose what means the most to me in the process.. my friends/ relationships suffer because I chose to put my "career" first .. in hopes of making it somehow.. I just wonder how much my soul can take of this.. This band has one of the highest member turnover rates i can think of.. but i dont wanna be just another statistic.. it seems like the deeper i get into this the more i need to make it work.. I wish i could just not care and "enjoy the ride".. but that is slowly becoming impossible these days .. even for someone as laid back as me... If I am stressing .. you know there's some serious problems..
My head is going to pop.
That being said.. I had a few good thoughts today.. which made the crap seem bearable.. they all involved a 4 hour drive.
and i like it.
ok .. rant over. please comment if you care. I could use some moral support.