Reflections...
So with the imminent date of graduation looming on the horizon, my thoughts of late have turned to reflection. Man that sounded poetic. I like it.
Looking back over the past year, it is safe to say that it was the best ever. Never before have I been as confident in myself or more willing to accept who I am. Not that I'm incredibly confident in myself now or anything. Just more then before. That's due very little to me maturing and very big to awesome people I've met this year. So I think everyone who might read this is my friend. So thanks for being cool. And stuff. Yeah. It makes me sad to think of all the people I'm leaving behind for college. It's hard to imagine people anywhere else being as cool as the people I've met here. This was a more social year for me since I occasionally actually thought that people would want to hang out with me. Good feeling that. In terms of relationships, I find myself leaving another year behind without one starting. That makes for a pretty blank slate overall. But at least this year I finally got over being such a shallow little bitch about it all. Appearance means so very little in the long run and I don't have any right to judge anyway. That realization that I don't have to just like the stupid blonde popular cheerleaderish whores at least opened some new doors for me, if not all of them. Wow..rambling. This is why I don't update often. I can never think straight enough for these to make good sense or to convey what I want them to.
I wish this summer wasn't going to be so busy for everyone. People have jobs or summer school or early departures to deal with and I feel like I won't get the time in that I really want with people. I want to live in the moment, but that bittersweet August moment is omnipresent in my mind. Plus the fact that I have friends leaving not just in August, but in July and June as well. Never enough time to do what you want.
In conclusion, this year = good, next year = cross my fingers.
Looking back over the past year, it is safe to say that it was the best ever. Never before have I been as confident in myself or more willing to accept who I am. Not that I'm incredibly confident in myself now or anything. Just more then before. That's due very little to me maturing and very big to awesome people I've met this year. So I think everyone who might read this is my friend. So thanks for being cool. And stuff. Yeah. It makes me sad to think of all the people I'm leaving behind for college. It's hard to imagine people anywhere else being as cool as the people I've met here. This was a more social year for me since I occasionally actually thought that people would want to hang out with me. Good feeling that. In terms of relationships, I find myself leaving another year behind without one starting. That makes for a pretty blank slate overall. But at least this year I finally got over being such a shallow little bitch about it all. Appearance means so very little in the long run and I don't have any right to judge anyway. That realization that I don't have to just like the stupid blonde popular cheerleaderish whores at least opened some new doors for me, if not all of them. Wow..rambling. This is why I don't update often. I can never think straight enough for these to make good sense or to convey what I want them to.
I wish this summer wasn't going to be so busy for everyone. People have jobs or summer school or early departures to deal with and I feel like I won't get the time in that I really want with people. I want to live in the moment, but that bittersweet August moment is omnipresent in my mind. Plus the fact that I have friends leaving not just in August, but in July and June as well. Never enough time to do what you want.
In conclusion, this year = good, next year = cross my fingers.