day 3: My life is hell
I want to just DIE right now! Eric called me and we talked for like an hour about our relationship, and he wants to break up! I mean, he thinks it's too hard to date when he's so far away, but it's not true. I write him letters every day! He doesn't write back as much, but I know he's busy with his job (he works the night shifts at Subway. He might be promoted to assistant manager soon!) So I cried for a long time, and I really begged him to reconsider, so he said he would think about it and we could talk in a few days about it. I love him sooo much, he is my life, except for poetry of course, and my band. I would be a lost, wandering soul without him! I practically am already, because like I have to go to summer school and none of my friends understand any of the issues I'm going through. I suffer so much but no one understands, or even listens! God it's hard. I think I'm going to go write a poem in black ink on black paper.
Also, this guy today, I didn't know him, walked up to me at the cafe at said something to me about eating out with me. I said sure, because he was cute and had his eyebrow pierced, and then he totally laughed at me and walked up! I have no idea what time he wants to go out to eat and I don't have his number, which is too bad because I wanted to eat out with him. But I wonder why he thought it was so funny?
Also, this guy today, I didn't know him, walked up to me at the cafe at said something to me about eating out with me. I said sure, because he was cute and had his eyebrow pierced, and then he totally laughed at me and walked up! I have no idea what time he wants to go out to eat and I don't have his number, which is too bad because I wanted to eat out with him. But I wonder why he thought it was so funny?