epiphany
i had an epiphany...i think its time i start taking my mistakes more seriously...i have started to realize why my relationship never lasts...its not always melissa...its me too...i blow things out of proportion the same amount she does...i do things that upset her just like she does to me...even if hers are more drastic than mine they still count...i never want to tell her how i feel and i leave things out...i never talk about what i want to do i always let her make the decisions...well i need to make some decisions too...i need to take half or more of the blame for things when they go wrong...she doesn't need all of that stress and i handle things better than her anyways and it will help me talk to her more and open up a little...cause i need to work on that shit...cause her feelings mean alot to me so i think i need to work with her rather than blame her...cause she is getting upset over things i can fix before they happen...also thats another thing i need to do...learn how she feels and take that into consideration rather than being a typical guy and attempting to fix it before i look into the problem...cause i love her and i don't want to lose her again like the last times...so i'm willing to work on this shit in order to make this one work...cause i know that this is my last chance and there is no room for mistakes...i need to crack down on this...or "nip it in the bud" if u will...lol...well i think this has been my most meaningful entry to date so i think i'll leave you now and hope you'll leave comments...I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MELISSA...