Chicago- the land of dreams and chaos

[emolikeeryn]

Im flying to the homeland for the first time in a while to help a friend out who needs me by her side. Im totally okay with that.... however... chicago has always brought up completely bitter-sweet memories of fighting family... wonderful outings.. childhood memories and playdates... betrayl... and utter chaos. Im excited to see the city i love so much... im wondering if ill ever live there... there is something about the night life.. michigan ave. the museum of science and industry.... the chicago art inst. the chicago symphany... so many wonderful things to do.. the sights... the lights... its all so facinating to me. Not to mention the policemen on horseback... and my ultimate fondness for wrigley field. Oh baseball games. Albany, is just so boring to me... i have a few select friends here and i love them all very much so like family; they embraced me when i was alone in my first year and have been by my side and told me the truth from day one... not too much drama, it all could be fixed. But i think my two day vacation helping a friend is what i need. I need to see sketch areas under the EL... and seeing wonderful jazz musicians along the street with hats in front of them FULL. So much was offered to my family there. It is where my mom and dad laid eyes on eachother for the very first time... the place i was born... my mom and dad got sober there, my grandfater died there, learned how to poka and speak some romanian, playing with legos in the eary basement of Omas.... and dressing the stupid geese out on her porch and making fun of the fact she lives on South Park. I need a change of pace. Im excited to go out there an tell no one im leaving to one of the greatest cities in the world. I havent been back in over 6 years..... and i miss it. im happy just to lay eyes on the skyline once more.

im content in my being at the moment. and its so easy for me to be calm and rational, level headed and more. Im alright.