Well...
I guess its been a long ass time since I updated my journal, and maybe just maybe it will be good for me to try, given my very 6amish state of mind right now.
Its been a good two weeks, school is going to start sometime in the middle of this coming week, I never know why they do that (start in the middle of the week) and whatever, I cherish every moment away from the stress of school I can get my hands on. For the most part I have been lazily living it up, not doing anything worthwhile, I guess thats what I do most of the time except now it is justified. A few days ago on like tuesday I got really sick from something I ate, namely these pepperoni sticks. Im not going to eat them ever again, lol. I puked repeatedly, seeing your breakfast more then once is not very fun.
So yes... Now that I have that breif background check out of the way, I can start to complain about how much today sucked. Kidding, well no Im not kidding, today sucked because I sat at home all day! Thursday was okay, I got to hang out at sabs' house, plans changed alot fast, and it turned out I would not get to meet her beloved Jakey. Hopefully another time soon :\ She gave me a book about WWII as a slightly late christmas gift, I know that may seem like a weird gift but I actually do find such things interesting, amazing huh?
I got her a present too, it was a rock, a tumbled peice of hematite with a gold eagle engraved on it. It wasnt just a random gift, I dont know if she remembered or knew or whatever, the 29th of last month was more or less the date on wich we became a couple. I dunno I wanted to take that little chance to show her shes special to me, but I kind of botched it all up because of my mood near the end of the night.. I feel bad now, I feel bad about everthing, I just feel bad in general. I dont know why I act the way I do sometimes, whats wrong with me?
My thoughts are always with Sabrina, unfortunately this new years thats the closest I can be to her, because she is doing something with her good friend for new years. Im not jealous, that would be wrong, and Im not upset, I hope she has a great time but I am feeling down so I want to be with her, but I just cant and its killing me. Why does love have to be so stupid, lol.
I dont feel like saying any more.
<3
Its been a good two weeks, school is going to start sometime in the middle of this coming week, I never know why they do that (start in the middle of the week) and whatever, I cherish every moment away from the stress of school I can get my hands on. For the most part I have been lazily living it up, not doing anything worthwhile, I guess thats what I do most of the time except now it is justified. A few days ago on like tuesday I got really sick from something I ate, namely these pepperoni sticks. Im not going to eat them ever again, lol. I puked repeatedly, seeing your breakfast more then once is not very fun.
So yes... Now that I have that breif background check out of the way, I can start to complain about how much today sucked. Kidding, well no Im not kidding, today sucked because I sat at home all day! Thursday was okay, I got to hang out at sabs' house, plans changed alot fast, and it turned out I would not get to meet her beloved Jakey. Hopefully another time soon :\ She gave me a book about WWII as a slightly late christmas gift, I know that may seem like a weird gift but I actually do find such things interesting, amazing huh?
I got her a present too, it was a rock, a tumbled peice of hematite with a gold eagle engraved on it. It wasnt just a random gift, I dont know if she remembered or knew or whatever, the 29th of last month was more or less the date on wich we became a couple. I dunno I wanted to take that little chance to show her shes special to me, but I kind of botched it all up because of my mood near the end of the night.. I feel bad now, I feel bad about everthing, I just feel bad in general. I dont know why I act the way I do sometimes, whats wrong with me?
My thoughts are always with Sabrina, unfortunately this new years thats the closest I can be to her, because she is doing something with her good friend for new years. Im not jealous, that would be wrong, and Im not upset, I hope she has a great time but I am feeling down so I want to be with her, but I just cant and its killing me. Why does love have to be so stupid, lol.
I dont feel like saying any more.
<3