i think i'm running thin and wearing out...
worked again today..... another lobng day....i work again tomorow...but only 5-10... um... yea.... i work thursday, friday, and saturday....and mostlikely sunday(i always do)....um... yea....so if im not aloud to go to the concert(which i better be!)...then ill just work....or just have them drive me to work and just wonder the mall from 6-10.... or maybe just walk aroud cherry hill.... maybve get hit by a car.... that'll teach them haha....so yea chri's last day in moorestown is friday and its aprporiate that we all go tot he concert to see him off and out of this horrid town... i just hope shit doesnt fall apart after he moves....cuz its happened before...and i wont lose another.... i wish i could hangout more b 4 he moves...but work sucks.... and lately everything has been getting on my nerves.... i want what i dont know of yet..... but im not sure i want what i have anymore..... like is becoming to hard.... did i mention growing up sucks? lol... well i bought the circa survive CD last night....cuz i found my wallet finally and used my gift card....its not bad... he sound slike a chick.... but most emo/indie bands now-a-days have a singer thta sounds like a chick.... i want to do something different....i want all thses useless screamo bands thta keep poping up to fuckin cut there wrists and die slowly...... i want all the shity metal bands that wanna make a buck off use stupid metal heads that go out and buy their records....cuz they sound like our favorite band..... all bands are sounding alike..... its disapointing thta all of my favorite bands are only reissueing their old CDs.....it is reallllllly pissing me off!....i thik im gonna start listening to some older stuff.... more from the 70's and 80's....thats where alll of these horrible bands that call themselves mainstream came from..... i need to do more home work...is till failin in schol....but the marking perid ends on wed..... so im fuckin this time around... but next parking period im gonna try...even though im not sure what good it will do.....if i wasnt the one to screw up things..... who in my family woulkd?.... i am your great disapointment...and you wouldnt have it any other way.... o well time to get back to real life.... and out of this nonsense.... i havent cried in a while...because i have noticed that tears mean nothing.... some how this is leaving me jaded....and i dont know where to go