day 1
well in aspects day one of new davey sucked. i was completely sad pretty much all day at school. but one thing though i do think i fixed some things with ron. on my way home i left a letter on his notepad. said i was sorry. and that even though we are two different ppl, there is no reason that we have to hate each other. then i walked home alone. and also today and tomorrow ill have no music. with really makes me vunerable. and i talked to fabi a lil bit. i asked him if he heard what happened last night. he said yea. then all day he didnt say another word to me. it really pissed me off. i also went back over to rons around 4. courtney was there. it felt really wierd. not seeing her smile, nor being albe to smile seeing her. its only day one and i feel like a part of me is missing. it'll get better. it has to get better. then on my home all i could think about was how much i wanted to get drunk and stoned. and current thoughts of just riding my bike straight into traffic flooded my mind. doc is 2 days away. i hope i survie.
-davey
-davey