recovered
Today I layed in bed after coming home from errands that I ran after work this morning, and I thought, man I'm tired. Then I thought, no, you can't be tired, you haven't done that much today, and you have to work again later. Then I thought, wow, look how far I have come. It is insane how weak I was while I was using. On any day this summer, taking a shower was usually the most tiring event of the day.I drank like an alcoholic, often alone when nobody saw. I smoked so much pot I could do little else. And so my "day" usually was done around 1 o' clock, when I had managed to get up, and eat something, shower, lay in the sun, make a drink, and that was it. I felt utterly powerless and weak all the time. Now I can get up at 8 am, run, go to work, run errands, go to work, hang out, go to sleep, and do it all again. i am so productive.