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[emokid2]

i just wrote a whole list of things i wanted to say. and then i proceeded to re-read everything and delete it all. does it really matter if i write it down? does it really matter that i display the problems i am having right now, or the thoughts that are running through my head? no. it doesn't. it doesn't help the situation any. it doesn't make anything easier to post it. it makes it more real. and honestly, i don't want that right now. i don't wanna think about any of it until it happens. then maybe by pushing it back so far, i might forget about it by that point and it won't even matter.

and i bet i'm making a bigger deal out of everything than need be. oh well, i guess that's what i do right?