im a loser
it's not really a shocker to anybody but hey look it's true all the same, im a loser. thats why im sittin here, alone, on the comp, with nobody to talk to... the only 3 ppl i want to talk to are busy...rarara.. homework or whatever... hmm... im soo lost right now... i dunno what to think these days.... im happy but confused... i mean i want to talk to mike, like always, but i can't talk to him all the time like io used to.. he doesn't want to anymore.... thats cool... it's all peachy but it's hard to slowly lose your best friend and you can't do anything to stop it... im used to goin to school in brentwood and all but it is still hard when you went through everything that matters with ppl who aren't even around anymore. i don't mind my school so much anymore... i just wish i felt comfortable around anybody besides the ones that i can't be around alot.... meh... frustrating!.... i just don't get why im always so nervous around all them... note to the children!: if any of you saw the way i act around all these ppl you wouldn't know me... i have no confidence what so ever... no longer the hey yeah my name is aly, don't fuck with me... now im like"invisible aly" and i would rather none of them say anything to me... unless your name is justin, then talk all you want cuz you rule...
meh i just watched grease.. alone.... justin i need to watch it with you.... lol... just not possible to like that movie without ya... it is your movie after all.
today was lame... testing sucks but hey ... lots of quiet time
rarara....