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i hate thining about you so fuckin much. i hate that i still miss you.i hate how i cant go anywhere without thinking about you or something that we did or said or shared together. i miss holding you.i miss taking care of you.i hate missing being the one you ran to and.1736 steps from my house to yours?i hate feeling the memories.i dont want to remember.you were so beautiful.anytime anywhere.whether you were sleeping or crying or laughing.i loved all of it.i hate that i hurt you so much.1101 glenwillow lane.goddamnit."you were always the world to me" fuckin a sushi im so sorry.i hate that too. i hate that after all this time im still crying about you.by loving you so much i hurt you.all the movies we ever watched together,any cookie,boys kissing,music,cigarettes,blood,laughter.....all of it makes me think of you.cloves reming me of your house because your mom smoked them.checkers because of the shoelaces i gave you once for christmas.pink.sunrises because of that day tim spent the night and we went in search of a dennys.birthmarks.a unicorn giving a ride to a bumble bee, a poodle, and hawaii.sushi because its your nickname.oreos because your the only person i have ever met that leaves one on the bottom of the milk, drinks the milk and then eats the mush at the bottom.i ate a whole pack a few weeks ago and it made me cry.what you used to order at taco bell.all these pathetic things about you that i remember.all your favs.casablanca,sprite,britany spears,pink,colorful things,smiles,shopping,shoes,pictures...life.id still die for you.but ill never get the chance sadly.yeah i have moved on but sometimes i remember and need some time to think.you have a life that doesnt include me which is cool as long as your happy.i like my life and i no nothing will come of any of my pathetic rantings and im fine with that.oi my konstantine.im done.
This is to a girl who got into my head
with all these pretty things she did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things I did
Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine