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[emoketchuprocks]

listenin to green day, talkin to alex and justin........ oi i need a life.... well see now lindsey adopted me but im worried that if i hang with her all her other friends will hate me because well i dunno lindsey is their friend and was theirs first and i don't want to be a thief...... i dunno..... im chicken shit and pathetic. nobody has much time for me these days....mike only talks to me when i call him....alex is always busy.... rachel has soo much going on... as usual... and the ppl i want to hang out with here(lindsey...justin...ect...) have lives that are perfectly ok without me in them.... chad is mad at me cuz i don't like him and i won't go out with him and i don't want to be around him all the time.... it's annoying....... he thinks he knows me so fucking well when how can he??? i don't even know me these days... how can anyone but michael and rachel know me? im just stuck here with myself...its a scary thing to always be alone....sometimes i can't really talk when i get home......it's like i go mute or sumthin... talkin at home is awkward for me... my teacher thinks i have an eating disorder....everyone thinks i am depressed....unless it is possible to be depressed for years at a time then no im not.... i have been like this for a long time...... i use the term meloncholic....it's just me.... im ok being sad all the time...when thats all you have to think about you eventually become comfortable with it.... i dunno

beautiful ppl rock..accept for the fact that they don't take much notice of me.....

beautiful ppl of the week
-michael
-justin
-lindsey
and a million other ppl who are ok with who they are