jacks isolated thoughts

[emoketchuprocks]

well hmm now lets see..... suprising that i even have a heart left after all the times it has been torn out with a spoon.... very few seem to notice though.... alot of people just say a bunch of shit and don't thikn about how other people will react to what the have said. it kinda hurts that so many people honestly don't give a crap ya know...? alot of times they are ppl that you would never expect to hurt you too..the ones who you would think know you well enough to think "hmm maybe this will make aly feel like shit..." but no..... well there ya go again...

expect nothing from anyone and you will never be disappointed.

i feel so depressed and restless lately and i don't even know why.. i need a party or sumthin. too bad i can't go on fri. with rachel. i really want to... i think that it would be nice to actually be able to have fun with rachee again. i need a life. fuck. i have been in bed every day for the past week until at least noon. then im home all day feeling alone and detached from everything else. ever have that feeling that everything is far away and you are invisible to everyone that might matter? i feel like that all the time. everything is quiet and slow motion almost, with the volume turned way way down so you can harly hear. yup. thats my everyday thing. talking is difficult and not worth the effort it takes. fuck summer school is gonna be hard with everything in this mode.

monday i start summer school. lame. yes,yes it is.