I said i love you
So I guess its time for a post...hmmm..lets start with friday. Friday...Katie,Amanda,Danny and myself ventured out to pacific to see the JJ. I was driving and of course got lost.but I found it eventualy..oh and Katie was on shrooms so yeah that was exciting...Spent the night at JJ's woke up went home. Saturday Katie and I threw a party. I wasnt in a verry good mood so I layed in my room fer a while then went out into the social to begin the downward spiral that is drinking. I got super fucked up super quick. -FASTFOWARD- I was sitting outside, and was tricked into confesing a bunch of things that have been on my mind..which would have prrly been better not said..cuz I just felt humiliated..they might as well have laughed in my face..so after that I was suicidal and drunk..the good thing about the combo is that I was to drunk to do anything to self destructive. around morning time Robin draged me to my bed because..well I dunno..I didnt wanna go to bed..I wanted to just sit there and drink some more..ya know so that I wouldnt remeber anything in the morning..but yeah So im sleeping and stuff. Today we went to pick jess up from work and went to the Tracks and Katie locked her keys in the car and it was a pain in the ass fer her to get em out...I know what your gonna say and I tryed to help her but she was being mean about so yeah...anyway she got em out and the three of us walked to the supports of the railroad and Jess climbed to the top. Katie climbed a lil bit but I stayed near the bottom..cuz i dont like unsecure high places. then we walked down to the river where we sat and looked at the water fer a bit. Next we went to Tonys house. Chilled ther went to erics house. He wasnt home and then we went to the trails. That wasnt to much fun..I drank a lil bit but i wasnt really in the mood..so I did my fade in the shadows thing and disapeared for a while. BJ found me and tryed to psychoanalyze me and pissed me off so yeah..I went back to the fire and stood there for a while the faded again and sat and watched people from a distance...maybe everyone is right maybe I am crazy..maybe i need help but fuck that...so Katie and I came home I gave her a massage and then she went to bed..Jesus was suposed to come over but didnt..oh well. Thats about it. I myself am getting a bit tired so goodnight goodmorrow and sweat dreams to all those already in the depths of there slumber.