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*This is completely venting. If you dont think you can handle my rage, and want to start shit with me because you think you're somehow included in this annonymity, then dont read it. I don't need shit right now.*
So basically I've been feeling completely tied down or like I'm running in place for the past few days.
I know I'm not on my man period, because that was just two weeks ago. But It's annoying to me because It's inhibiting my productivity.
Among the issues annoying me is the feeling that noone wants to return my calls (and or) contact me at all. It's getting me a bit upset. So don't be suprised if I turn off the cell for a while.
I'm also annoyed at the fact that I'm working really hard, (minus the past week and a half) on fitness, and it seems like I'm sabataging myself, or everyone else sabatages my plan.
Like, for instance, Melissa and I started walking three weeks ago with the intention of walking three days a week. Since that week we've walked twice. No lie. Everytime something comes up. It upsets me because I cut back on yoga to start this walking in the morning. I really am annoyed that Im not walking or doing yoga, because I switched my routine up to help someone else and they sort have left me hanging dry.
I'm annoyed that School starts soon and I have to get my math ass in gear, so that I can place out of that stupid fuckin assrank class that makes me want to blow up things and drop out of school. It makes me feel stupid.
I'm also just annoyed at my lack of interest for either of my jobs lately. I want to jetset, rocket, and be tanned and fabulous. Everyone else is running around going on trips and junk, and I'm stuck here, doing nothing, and noone even cares. Noone returns my calls, noone calls me at all. Which is annoying, because I like to feel like I'm important to my friends, and noone is making the effort to showcase that.
I've been budgeting money to buy friends junk and stuff, but screw that. Josh is getting a new cellphone so I can call nobody.
As you can see Im just pissed. Im annoyed. I need a vacation. I need a weekend away. I need something.
So basically this is a screw everything post.
So basically I've been feeling completely tied down or like I'm running in place for the past few days.
I know I'm not on my man period, because that was just two weeks ago. But It's annoying to me because It's inhibiting my productivity.
Among the issues annoying me is the feeling that noone wants to return my calls (and or) contact me at all. It's getting me a bit upset. So don't be suprised if I turn off the cell for a while.
I'm also annoyed at the fact that I'm working really hard, (minus the past week and a half) on fitness, and it seems like I'm sabataging myself, or everyone else sabatages my plan.
Like, for instance, Melissa and I started walking three weeks ago with the intention of walking three days a week. Since that week we've walked twice. No lie. Everytime something comes up. It upsets me because I cut back on yoga to start this walking in the morning. I really am annoyed that Im not walking or doing yoga, because I switched my routine up to help someone else and they sort have left me hanging dry.
I'm annoyed that School starts soon and I have to get my math ass in gear, so that I can place out of that stupid fuckin assrank class that makes me want to blow up things and drop out of school. It makes me feel stupid.
I'm also just annoyed at my lack of interest for either of my jobs lately. I want to jetset, rocket, and be tanned and fabulous. Everyone else is running around going on trips and junk, and I'm stuck here, doing nothing, and noone even cares. Noone returns my calls, noone calls me at all. Which is annoying, because I like to feel like I'm important to my friends, and noone is making the effort to showcase that.
I've been budgeting money to buy friends junk and stuff, but screw that. Josh is getting a new cellphone so I can call nobody.
As you can see Im just pissed. Im annoyed. I need a vacation. I need a weekend away. I need something.
So basically this is a screw everything post.