rain..
it's raining again.
surprise surprise.
Things seem really different all of a sudden. I feel distant and removed. I wonder if maybe certain people prefer me that way.
I'm scared that for some reason things with Morgan are coming to an end.
All things in their time and a time for all things.
I just wonder. Maybe it is time to give up the ghost. Maybe it isn't a ghost yet. But I have no way of knowing. I just feel my way blind.
Betrayed, maybe that's the best word to describe how I feel. Betrayed.
Will no one defend my honor?
maybe I have no honor.
maybe that's why I have no prince.
***
re-reading this my only thought is, "god, you're an idiot."
Morgan's the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love him so much that it hurts. I guess that's why I want to give up so much. It scares me that he loves me and it's painful to realize that the majority of your relationship is going to be spent missing each other and saying goodbye. It's hard to love someone and know that they just can't be there for you. It's hard to remain optimistic when you're living in-between weekends and weeks spent apart. But I know that it's worth it, because all I can think about is sleeping with my head on his shoulder.
I just miss you, and this is my fucked up way of showing it. I don't really care about what you did or didn't say to Hilary, and I don't care what you do on the weekends. I just wish that I were there.
surprise surprise.
Things seem really different all of a sudden. I feel distant and removed. I wonder if maybe certain people prefer me that way.
I'm scared that for some reason things with Morgan are coming to an end.
All things in their time and a time for all things.
I just wonder. Maybe it is time to give up the ghost. Maybe it isn't a ghost yet. But I have no way of knowing. I just feel my way blind.
Betrayed, maybe that's the best word to describe how I feel. Betrayed.
Will no one defend my honor?
maybe I have no honor.
maybe that's why I have no prince.
***
re-reading this my only thought is, "god, you're an idiot."
Morgan's the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love him so much that it hurts. I guess that's why I want to give up so much. It scares me that he loves me and it's painful to realize that the majority of your relationship is going to be spent missing each other and saying goodbye. It's hard to love someone and know that they just can't be there for you. It's hard to remain optimistic when you're living in-between weekends and weeks spent apart. But I know that it's worth it, because all I can think about is sleeping with my head on his shoulder.
I just miss you, and this is my fucked up way of showing it. I don't really care about what you did or didn't say to Hilary, and I don't care what you do on the weekends. I just wish that I were there.