YOU DONT EVEN KNOW
okay i'm back after 987654321 years of hiatus.
sorry, i've just been too caught up in everything to actually bother typing into these box here that i've abandoned for eons. caught up in..? Eating disorder, grades, relationship, whatever.
I don't know. I gave myself till the end of the year to curb the ED. If i succeed, then no one can force me to go to the doc's. If i still fail by the end of the year, anyone can drag me to the doc's for treatment. but right now.. I really think i should be telling mum and dad about this. I really think I really really need help now. I don't know why I'm so afraid of seeking help. I just don't want to, but I've realised that I wouldn't be able to this on my own. I ll never be able to make it back on my feet again. I don't want to live the rest of my life like this. I don't want to spend the whole of my life burdened with an eating disorder. it just isnt right. I don't want to ruin my body anymore. it's driving me nuts, all this stuff im reading about eating disorders yet i cant do anything to make myself snap out of it. It's just.. mental. i cant control anything anymore. I guess, this is my cry for help huh?
yj.. I don't know what to do. I want a breakup. I don't know whether i really want a breakup but.. urgh. why're you just never there for me?
damnit.
sorry, i've just been too caught up in everything to actually bother typing into these box here that i've abandoned for eons. caught up in..? Eating disorder, grades, relationship, whatever.
I don't know. I gave myself till the end of the year to curb the ED. If i succeed, then no one can force me to go to the doc's. If i still fail by the end of the year, anyone can drag me to the doc's for treatment. but right now.. I really think i should be telling mum and dad about this. I really think I really really need help now. I don't know why I'm so afraid of seeking help. I just don't want to, but I've realised that I wouldn't be able to this on my own. I ll never be able to make it back on my feet again. I don't want to live the rest of my life like this. I don't want to spend the whole of my life burdened with an eating disorder. it just isnt right. I don't want to ruin my body anymore. it's driving me nuts, all this stuff im reading about eating disorders yet i cant do anything to make myself snap out of it. It's just.. mental. i cant control anything anymore. I guess, this is my cry for help huh?
yj.. I don't know what to do. I want a breakup. I don't know whether i really want a breakup but.. urgh. why're you just never there for me?
damnit.