Get a life.
something is up with me lately.
it just seems like i've been completely disatisfied with everything that has happened and everything that i have. i'm always wanting more; my jealousy is back, and it's not good. it used to be that i only got jealous of ex-boyfriends or something really stupid like that, but now it's getting out of hand. it's with friends, it's with people i don't even know.
i see someone with their little group of friends, and i wish so badly to be one of them. i'll see someone who has nice things (even though i know i have a lot & i should be happy for what i have), and i'm automatically jealous and think of what i could have that would be equally as good, and better than what i have now. so i guess it's a little bit of greed, mixed with a whole lot of jealousy. it's really horrible, and i don't like it at all.
and auugh, ethan grover. he's probably the epitomy of my unhappiness lately. usually, this person is someone who i'm in love with (you know, blah blah blah) but no...this time it's the opposite, which is quite unusual for me. anyway, ethannn seriously needs to get a life. which doesn't really make sense, but he needs to get a life that isn't mine.
jealousy comes in big time when it comes to mr. grover. we used to be friends...and gabby used to tell me that he was a complete asshole. he was dating dani, i was just becoming friends with alayna...dani & alayna hated eachother but other than that, life was good. then ethan and dani broke up, ethan met alayna...even that was fine. alayna and dani became friends again...dani & ethan started liking eachother again. -- you know what? i'm not even going to finish the summary. but basically, my situation now.
three of my best friends are in love with ethan, and he's taking it completely the wrong way. they're all mad at eachother for it, because ethan likes rebecca...ethan's become a complete stuck-up asshole & rebecca's being a bitch about the whole thing.
then there's this whole sadies epidemic, which is pretty well cleared up...but is evidence for rebecca's attitude change. then she goes on like nothing's wrong. now, we're not talking.
rebecca's jealous of me and alayna, dani's jealous of ethan and rebecca, and alayna's just stuck in the middle. meanwhile, me and ethan are "hating eachother" because of something that rebecca told him, and even after i apologized...he didn't believe i was "sincere" and still "hates" me. it's just way to dramatic.
and today i vowed to stay out of it all. so that's what i'm going to do.
oh yeah, and there was lots of drama with me & darion until recently...not going into that. we're friends for the moment.
on a happier note, i'm asking danny to sadies :) i'm pretty excited about it.
and tyler killed his leg, practically. get well soooon buddy!