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I stayed at Neil's house tuesday night and just took a shower at my aunts the next day ND' went out for breakfast to Mickey D's with mom. after we ate mom drove me to nans and i just stayed with her the day cause it was around 12 anywayz and i didnt really m ind spending time with nan cause like i barley see her anymore cause im alwayz with neil. anywhoos, lastnight was funn.. I did Neil's dishes before he was home of course and my cousin erik came over with me cause he had nothing else to do.. we listened to music and then Neil was home at 8:30.. i asked if he wanted to come to my place so i can help my mother decorate but he didnt really wanna cause he wanted to relax after work, so i didnt mind at all. We just smoked a joint and listened to music and he played his acustic! Which I heart! I love when he plays now. I didnt like it much before because I felt he was ignoring me but he never was I love listening to him play his guitar now its so awesome! I could sit for hours and just listen. and mom came down and said im not coming back for you so if you wanna stay at willenas you can cause she said your allowed.. so im like uh huh and i called and told her to lay out pjs for me. so i stayed with neil until 12 and then left.. i wasnt happy at all about leaving either. my rents treat me like i'm a fucking 16 year old that cant stay at a boyfriends house. butim not i mean i'm almost 19 i should be able to do what i want. and i should be able to stay out whenever i please at Neil's. god i hate being away from Neil so much. gahh! i have such a hard time sleeping when i no i could be curled up next to neil with his loving safe arms around me while we sleep but nooo the fucking rents dont allow it for some stupid reason... grr it urks me so much.. i mean my brothers allowed to do whatever he wants even tho hes 21 today.. still if i have thoes rules so should he because its not freakin fare....and tonight im going to Mount Carmel schools concert because my cousins in it and i love going to things he does! woot

EVERYONE WISH MY BRO A HAPPY B-DAY!!

Rachelle Loves Neil